half activist

Coucou depuis des milliards d'années

2008-12-24T18:44:00.001+01:00

HEllo tout le monde ca fait 100000 ans que j'ai pas posté sur mon blog

A New Start

2008-03-12T09:08:00.002+01:00

Today i went back to my blogspot blog.
One more time I'm thinking about posting messages on a more regular basis.
See you later, I'v got to go to work.

la cucaracia?

2007-10-01T09:09:00.000+02:00

I don't know how it's spelled.
Don't know what to write again, so why do I write? I don't know.
I don't know at all.
So please stand back from the edge of the platform, a train's coming.

France is bankrupt

2007-09-25T07:55:00.000+02:00

This is what said the Prime Minister a few days ago.
I suppose it's almost true, it's sad.
For me everyone is responsible for this giant debt, but the blow of all the social policies set by the left and asked by unions throughout the 80's and 90's has finally hurt.
I think this is partly because of the 2000's demographics, the population getting older and baby boomers have begun retiring, the economy slowing down, competitivity of french labour decreasing etc, etc.
So, in this economic climate how can things go well? This problem is quite hard.
I have so much resentment towards the left parties that ALWAYS claim new social benefits for everything, for the masses. Look where and lead us, you filthy bitches!

I'll give an example of all this great ideas, if we were to listen to the left wing:
France has a huge debt in (the national) medical insurances, but we should NOT ask a fee when consulting doctors, we should NOT raise the price of medicines
As you may not know, in France there's a system of benefits for families called 'CAF', what does it do?
Mainly, if you have children younger than 18 or (22 if they're at the university) you're elligible for a state subsidized allowance :-).
How does it work?
If you have 1 child, you don't have anything.
If you have 2, then you have to earn 1 salary only (say 1500E/month), if both parents are working, then nothing.
If you have 3 kids or more, then you won the grand prize.
There are families living off allowances, because there are loads of them.
And most people a paying taxes for allowances they'll never benefit.
I agree this is part of the game of insurance, to pay for things we should never use, but the system's such that people are cheating or are only parasiting this.
ARrgh, it pisses me off.

Hello Everybody!

2007-09-21T07:32:00.000+02:00

This morning is rather fresh, I don't know what's the temperature, however.
Summer draws to an end. What's the matter? There is no problem actually,
except that the weather will be getting colder and colder and we'll have to heat up the house, use gas, pollute, etc. That's sad, because or flat's not really well insulated it's rather old. However we're bound to move sooner or later, in the coming years.
I really wonder what'll be the cost of it all this year, the Euro has reached all time highs, the US economy seems to be slipping into a crisis - why the fuck subprimes lendings were created for? - will it end someday? Are we all broken? This is worth worrying. Still I can't do anything but to cope. What would be a smart move in this burden? As usual I think, I worry but do nothing.
But I keep faith.

holy crap! we're trapped.

2007-09-20T08:59:00.000+02:00

Everything I do without thinking, it's so easy
I took but never bothered asking, i'm a thief
Centuries spent lying on a coffin, not so comfortable

The end of a great novel.

2007-09-17T08:22:00.000+02:00

I've just finished reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
Sometimes i thought it was a bit lengthy, tedious, but I was wrong, the story is wonderful.
It needs to be long, it's not all black and white, it's not simple.
It needs time to come and everything becomes clear in the light of what we learn as we go further
into the book, and we realize how much intricate these books are.
Severus Snape wasn't that bad, he wasn't bad at all. Only we're sure of it as we learn what happened in the past
in the lasts chapters, and what's awesome is that in these seven book, we think like Harry, indeed we read what Harry thinks, he's a kid, a teenager after all, thinks he grasps the world to its full extent, but actually only in the lights of its knowledge, which is limited.
However, Dumbledore had foreseen (almost) it all, and with the help of everyone, its plan worked.
This is marvelous, because as in real life, no one's nor completely bad nor good, but follows one's mind, changes, and realizes the faults. We're not sure Tom Riddle does so as he dies, but I think he does, as he finally understands what he definitely lacked and what lead him to his defeat, but there's a time to act, and when the last killing curse is cast, it is obviously too late.

I'll read it again for sure.

THis is the weekend

2007-09-15T08:30:00.000+02:00

This weekend we're going to Craponne/Arzon, we've got a caravan out there, and we spend weekends in the countryside,
this is really enjoyable.
I think I should post photos of our nice little caravan. I say little because it is rather small, it's a rather funny caravan.

Dora's Mental Sanity Doubtful

2007-09-11T08:20:00.000+02:00

Dora sometimes hangs up, have you never noticed? Sometimes, she asks questions, but nobody answers, not her friend the monkey, no one else's there.
She simply stops responding. The first time you see that, you can become really worried... "Dora! Dora! wake up! oh please answer Dora..." you would slap her in the face so she wakes up, but there's no need to.
All of a sudden she cames back to life and resumes her activity.
Is she running WIndows? Someone's plugging in a USB device and the system stops responding a few seconds?

I think she's possessed by the Holy Spirit of Indiana Jones, that explains why she's an explorer.
From time to time, this superior force takes over her and tells her what to do.
And she always do it right, because Indiana Jones always does too.

Life, the Dora's way

2007-09-11T07:34:00.000+02:00

I turned on TV this morning, zapping between channels, watched a few minutes "la matinale" on canal+, interesting, then the ads came so change the channel, and came across Dora...what a pity...I already post something in the past about it...However, I had never seen such a part - roughly I must have watched at most 10min of Dora in my life - Dora asked, in it's own special way of virtual interaction - ahah, funny, i'll came back to this later - so she asked "Do you want to save the duckling?", then paused for 10s so the stupid audience can answer, then resumed (she must have had a seizure of something like that, a brain freeze) and said something like "super! allons y!" (great! let's go then).
So in Dora, I realized, that implicitly, they force the children to think in a certain way. Why? Because each time a Dora and her little monkey friend take a decision, or should take a decision, they ask the audience, however, the decision is already taken since the action that follows is preprogrammed (of course, this is just an animation).
This is worse than everything because on several points it reduces the understanding children can grasp of the world.
About this duckling that went astray, what if the children didn't want to save him?
Funnier, in the same episode, Dora taught the followers swimming. Oh, I bet this is worth 10 swimming lessons. Everything was taught, ahem, i mean the movement essentially...arm mvts of the frontcrawl...I guess the breaststroke would've been slightly hard to picture and animate too.

The sooner they stop airing this the better the world.
To people all around the world dropping their kids in front of this:
This is NOT an educational program, you're fooling yourself, you're neglecting your kids.

2007-09-11T06:53:00.000+02:00

I don't know what to write. This 6:53AM, i haven't drank my coffee yet, not that I can't do anything, but, I don't feel like doing anything, except writing do my blog.
Yesterday I worked and played;music, recorded a tune I found interesting at the moment but I fell less excited about this morning.
There are mornings I wake up in a bad mood. This morning is one of them.

Bye.

Sept 10 : 5 months are gone

2007-09-10T06:31:00.000+02:00

Once again, lot of time elapsed since the last post.
It's like that, I think of this blog from time to time, Why have I got a blog for if I nevr post any message to it?
Because it was opened so as to keep pratising english after I graduate from University.
It's now been more than 2 years that I finished school.
What happened in the meanwhile? Some are logged in this blog, many aren't.
Did I ever wrote I had bought myself - we had bought ourselves, sorry - a electronic drumset? No?
Then we did. In April i believe, this is really great, it was the very instrument I ever dreamt of.
I remember - a long, very long time ago, 13y? - when I started attending drums lessons, I recall
being eager to learn more, and it all began I was beating rhythm all the time, and I still have this vivid
picture in my mind of my father, tired of me tapping, telling me something like - the exact words left place to the feelings - "why don't you register for drums lessons?". And I did.
I'be been interrupted by my sister - I lost the thread...it's always the same.
sorry.
I'd say, se you tomorrow blogger, but I can't be sure i'll be thinking of you when i wake up...
but I say it hoiwever,

See you tomorrow blogger!

Let's rock...baby?

2007-04-06T11:58:00.000+02:00

Oh yeah, let's rock!
Allo la lune? Ici la lterre, nous sommes en perdition, help!

You have to, you need to, you must...

2007-03-16T15:28:00.000+01:00

I hate being told what to do, even more when people telling me that don't know anything about the subject, if you see what I mean.
It's been a while since my last post, I don't event remember when it was.
Really, it so unbearable to be told to do things you just can't do!

2007-02-05T09:26:00.000+01:00

Russia is a fucking archaic state, just like many others, but I fuck Putin, I fuck russia, i piss on you, homophobic bastards, and everyone like that around the world. OK, all Russians are certainly not like that (I hope) i just hate it, and the Russian government is segregationist, gay pride is a satanic rally? What the shit have they got in their heads? After a communist Russia,
a Clerical Russia, Traditionalists are just lost in the world's all-time darkness.
I'd war against you.

Still No Snow

2006-12-22T10:46:00.000+01:00

We're December 22 and there've been no snow fall this autumn, this is rare, but it's been rather warm when the weather was rainy/cloudy and now it's cold but dry.
It's not unusual not to have snow for christmas, though it's usual to have snow on holidays too, this isn't abnormal at all.
I don't know what's this fucking anticyclone doing over the ireland, i heard there's a very thick fog in britain,
i don't even know what's the weather like in Paris and northern France, but here it's cold but sunny.

Have a nice day, you that may not read that.

2006-12-06T09:20:00.000+01:00

i think i've just understood something in my mind,
it's really difficult for me to just like somebody.
I tend to really like persons or hate them, often
what i feel for perrsons just oscillate between this

2006-12-06T09:03:00.000+01:00

send me a rope i wanna climb the hole i fell in
i know there's hope as long as i can hear you breathing
i grew so tall that i crushed you with my feet
it grew so big that i behave like a pig

and it all went bad when we lost the sight
and we all slowly became insane
we did the best we can to soothe the pain
but we'd no more feel it right

2006-11-17T09:21:00.000+01:00

and everything i think is not so big
i'm half an idition and half a pig

radio

2006-11-09T18:36:00.000+01:00

there's a talk show here on "Europe 1"...
and i has dinner in the meantime since i started this bloody post
i don't remember what i wanted to write.
So i'm just gonna shut up.

Europe 1 i a good station

...
Acting funny but i don't know why, excuse me while i kiss the sky
...

....

2006-10-20T09:04:00.000+02:00

I'm used to get myself in long monologues
and the words flow like a stream
but i don't know what they mean
'cause i'm going off tracks

and when i'm speaking to someone else
i can rejoice myself
but as usual, i can get lost in my speech, and the person would stop listening to me.

And what unnerves me is when people fake listening to me,
i'd prefer they tell me they stopped listening...

pitchi pitchi

2006-10-06T11:27:00.000+02:00

What i'm doing is so disappointing, i'm really depressed.
I DON'T WANT TO DO IT ANYMORE!
HELP! GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO SAY IT ALOUD!

...

2006-10-02T13:33:00.000+02:00

I'm secretly proud of me, but i don't want anybody to know that.
This is strange.

2006-10-02T10:40:00.000+02:00

there've been a crash and i was here to see
there've been a crash and you died in front of me

Now i can't sleep because of you
And i can't dream of things but you
you made me feel so down
you made me feel so down

My Header

2006-10-02T10:21:00.000+02:00

Fuck it! It's been long 'cause all the bytes were logged to the console, but it worked!
Yeah oh my god, it can't be true, thank you lord for your mercy!

Hello World!

2006-10-02T10:18:00.000+02:00

Ok so i'm trying to post a message from my homemade proxy server?
Will it work, I hope so, but i can't be sure of that.
Let's see.

Result: YEAH IT WORKS GREAT!

Hey!

2006-09-27T16:49:00.000+02:00

I'd say, why do you speak so bad?
OK, i know it's not your mother tongue, but why do you fake it?
This is not my native language too, but you can't do with such a low level,
worse of all when you're doing business.
As always it targets the same person.

Envolée lyrique

2006-09-25T14:52:00.000+02:00

Like anyone you're gonna die
But i don't care it's not tonight
And if it was, i would just cry
Cause i'd miss you until i die

Today's temper

2006-09-25T14:34:00.000+02:00

I'm thinking about someone i'd send to hell,
I'd like to tell him:
YOU'RE SUCH A BLOODY BASTARD!
YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING, AND I FUCK YOU.
ARRGGHHH, YEAH RIGHT, WHY ARE YOU DOING ALL THIS?

I feel much better now i yelled. cool...

See ya!

Stupid Teenager

2006-09-12T14:40:00.000+02:00

I've just realized this lunch time how stupid I used to be when i was teenage. Not entirely, but when we used to say with much (...i don't know the word to use...disdain?) that life's not worth being lived because we're all gonna die and stuffs like that, I think we say that because we'd like to have some control over things when we get older in our western world, but as a teenage you just a kid, you just control nothing, that's so frustrating.
OK, we certainly couldn't take real big decisions, but nonetheless it would be time to control our lifes.
So i think we all said that in our lives.
But finally, life's worth being lived, isn't it?

So i'll finish with my never grown-up touch (that is, pretty stupid touch actually),
the following word is funny, and it came to my mind early this morning:
Sugarillos. Sugar + Cigarillos.

New Song

2006-09-01T10:27:00.000+02:00

As usual, iv'e just recorded a new song, well not in its entirety however, 'cause i'm still not tenacious enough to do it. I wish i had the will to take all these projects to an end.
On day I will, i'm sure...but it seems it isn't today,so I shut up.
Bye.

shit

2006-08-09T16:09:00.000+02:00

I was born
a magnet for your heart
that delicately hurts
but never lets no rest

New Post

2006-06-21T08:58:00.000+02:00

It's been a long time once again since April 7 when i wrote the last post.
Nothing new, music creativity has been low, we've bought a caravan and it all went so fast,
but it's now back to normal.
My musical taste are getting broader and broader as I now listen to Pink Floyd, it's just crazy, I used to _hate_ their music but I was totally wrong, it was related to my teenager's parental rejection.

The latest first name

2006-04-07T20:42:00.000+02:00

Jean-Pierre Maculotte

Silverchair

2006-03-30T15:30:00.000+02:00

I suddenly wanna hear again some silverchair tunes, so i wen on the itunes music store and listened to the extracts they provide from frogstomp and other albums.
And i was struck by the lower quality of their songs. They could play well, but they were just copying what has been before us. And if you listen to the latest album Diorama, well, no, it's not worth listening to it.
But i liked it, i was a fool.
High school i don't miss you.

The equilibrium formula for the world

2006-03-30T11:58:00.000+02:00

I thought so much and search it for such a long time that finally i came to the fact that 23 years of mental illness and wealth could never be wrong, moreover if such good results came from my brains.
So here it is, under an obvious non-disclosure license (you read but you can't do anything with it) :

1/4 Blood + 1/8 Thirst + 1/2 Hunger -> Love + Wealth + Peace

As a side not to this, i would add that the results of the equation are in any proportions, there are plenty of them to tell the truth.
But, the first part must be as stated : 1/4 1/8 1/2, leaving 1/8 of the recipe to chance. Be it what you want but not too good however.

It's a bit like an oxydation-reduction reaction : it's complex but it works.

Psychotherapy : (was) Music music music

2006-03-19T00:52:00.000+01:00

Music is the pleasure i prefer.
And i'd like to play and play and play again.
But i don't, and i don't understand why?
Yeah why don't i play when i can sometimes?
Because i feel so depressed that everything i do stays there at home in its shell, never reaching the outside world. No, no, no, i don't want to be a star, but music is the really the thing that suits my behaviour, i always got it in the head, every tie, i stop what i'm doing for it, i've got tunes in my head i'd like to play in a band.
I used to play in a band, but it all collapsed and i don't know why too. I lost too much time in my studies, hoped my girlfriend and i would play some day but it's been delayed many times and i play with my computer, i compose for it.
I'm not prententious when saying that, i just mean creating a new music, be it bad or not, brand new or just a rip-off.
Therefore i'd like to show people what i really like in life. My family doesn't even seem to know, they're always talking about computers and shit gravitating around that and everybody i know does, but they get me pissed off with this shit of computers. I can't even talk to them a bit they don't know what i do on them, they think i've got screwdrivers boards and stuffs like that and i know everything about their fucking bugs. Then i say 'i don't know' and they don't believe me, so i try to explain them but they still don't get it.
I feel like someday i'm gonna break. I don't know when but i'm sure i'll do. I'm starting to act oddly. I don't know, i can't trust in anything, i hate saying others what i feel and i don't want no 'friends' or relatives reading that stupid blog. That's another reason i write it in english. I'm french, my family's french lanuguage and even the ones that can read english wouldn't care spending hours on stupid selfish little overwhelming dramas of my silly life.
i 'work' at home and i partly like it.
Partly because the job i do is partly interesting, because the conditions are partly good and because the relationship with my 'employers' is partly rotten.
First the job is sometimes interesting and sometimes i'd just wanna skip it, but people trust in me for doing this so i do it though this trust can't be reciprocal because my boss has been behaving strangely has you may read in some previous posts.
Working at home is enjoyable because i can do what i want when i want and there's not that much work to do, i'm not overloaded, far from it but i'm alone and i'm starting to feel a lack of social behaviour.
I used to hate everybody, but now i really hate everybody and i've got spurts of sympathy for people i see outside.
If i had somebody to play with this would really be better. I miss the time when i was playing in this silly band, we were having real fun but it began to go in the wrong way and i feel i was rejected actually. I never really understood what happened.
I remember after my friend at the drum decided to give up, i continue with my other friend (we where three) but i rememebr there were 'tensions' arising on the genre of musics to play, the way to play them, we both had a real punk background but i was on 'contructive' power side of it while my friend was on 'get it on your face' of it (and i think he still is).
The begining of my university studies scrambled everything, i now lived with my girlfriend, we played together with my friend, but we soon stopped for reason i can hardly admit. Living in this small appartment was really hard, we were low on money (not that much) but we had to be careful on the spendings. No car obviously, we didn't even had a driving license at the time. But living together was far better for me, it was freedom. My parents were considered cool but i really had nothing to talk about with them at the time, i was a troglodyte in my room rarely dining with them.
College studies are rather tough there, it's not really fun, moreover maths/cs ones. And i've made myself to believe i things and to like things so i didn't crack up. I recently came to this that i used to brainwash myself.
I'm definitely not logical but i used to believe i liked maths (actually, i just think it's great) but i'm the last dickhead in maths i don't know why but i just can't get it because I'm not logical and the structured thinking frame it provides just blew me off. But i managed to do my 6 years studies failing only the first year (but i almost wasn't at school). I was among the worst in maths, what was really a barrier, but i managed to have good results on subjects that suited me better such as cs, astronomy, chemistry, i was really bad at physics too, oh god how one can be as deeply bored by a subject as i was with Physics. It was stiff.
So back to present. I'm playing on my own because i decided to break the bond i had with my friend.
The worse is, when i really want to be in a band, i say it's all my girlfriend's fault.
I'm sitting in front of this fucking computer but nobody will ever read these lines.
Please god send me help. Please someone read it to the end, i'm craving for this.
I explained all this to my wife but nothing has changed. She does the best she can but music really isn't the first thing she'll do and i can't oblige her to play drums. Actually she says the contrary, that she likes it, i'd really like to believe her, but it would never be as much as i do, or i would play whenever i had time and she doesn't. She likes some much things. She's great, she's lovely, she's everything.
If you're there, thank you. Call me whenever you want, you're welcome.
I can even give you my friendship.

Hello

2006-03-14T14:21:00.000+01:00

I can't make myself writing to this fucking blog on a daily basis...it's just impossible. Myabe beacuase i really don't know what to write, and maybe because it may not be that fun too. Because it's totally boring what i've got to say. That's just nothing. My whole life is nothing. I've got to come to that. My life is REALLY NOTHING. When will i accept this?
Everyday i wake up i dream of things 'd do but i don't, but i'm pretty sure i'll do them and every evening i go to bed with that same feeling of self disgust, the reject of how deeply i'm enacting, always reproaching what hasn't happened.
I'm grumpy. I'm happy but i'm dead. I feel guilty.
Where's the music in it all?
IT'S THERE.

New song projects

2006-03-09T00:02:00.000+01:00

Here are three songs i project to finish,
Alkaline,
Alkaline.m4a
popSong2.m4a
definetly.m4a

Cultural exception?

2006-03-02T14:18:00.000+01:00

The closer you look at france (oh dear my country) society, the more you think it's a nationalist country.
People here are supposed to be deeply concerned by their cultural roots, the things that make france's culture "so special".
But what is it actually?
It's, hmm, a kind of dictatorship really. You'be got two power of great influence over cultural affairs : 1st, the media (tv, radio, papers), and the government.
I don't know of any private (rather big) company selling entertainment that's not related to tv, etc.
The government sphere is directed by purists, technicians, specialists, etc... (the way they coined themselves and they love we call'em, that's so intimidating) of specific arts, and are so self-assured they just can't understand anything else they didn't make, studied, everything they consider not to be enlightened is never put to lights.
So here comes the various cultural associative structures...most of them are run by people that consider themselves (as usual) the masterpiece of this small universe, and every one goes with its lived experiences, they spill their knowledge: they've got to show off, they got to say "look at me, i'm so great". You might say it's the same everywhere? You're right, everywhere it's the same pattern that's repaeted again and again, over everyone's mind, over every wall, everything:

Power.

The power to treat people with contempt, disdain.
And the worse of it all, the power to undermine people we know would overthrow our legitimacy towards the world, the ones that are better than us.

So that's the way it's in France.
So where are the real alternatives among that all? Nowhere. They're dead. They've got to shut up.

I've got to shut up.

So now i don't know?

2006-02-20T21:44:00.000+01:00

Hi!
Greenhouse gas from my ass.
What would you think about porno-comedy?

Band name

2006-02-14T10:59:00.000+01:00

Gang Band.
Gang Bang Band.
or Gand Band.
or Gand Bang.
Or Lonely Gang Bang.
Bang Gang.
Sex in reunion.

that's ENOUGH

2006-02-10T13:14:00.000+01:00

Exactly.
I just wanna know something.
Do people watching women/men whatever you being ass-exploded (ithink it's the right word once you've seen it) enjoy it?
For me it's just disgusting, it's inhuman, i hate it.
I HATE IT.
STOP IT NOW.
What's next.
This is mutilation. Just think about people receiving this. Would you like someone does it to you?
Really?
No for sure.
It's getting worse and worse.
I'm not against any kind of sexual behaviour, relationship, but i'm defintly against ill-treatment.
If i stumble across an image of that kind, i just make my way (is it correct to say that??? i meant i don't pay attention to them).

They're milking me

2006-02-01T11:14:00.000+01:00

Dear blog,
the company i'm working for is milking me.
They're getting the most out of me.
They're not paying me.
The way they're luring me.
The things they're always dodging.
The commitments they're always delaying.
Truth they may be telling.
Trust i'm no more feeling.

Ohoh, what a really good bunch of rhymes, isn't it?

Is it really what we are?

2006-01-23T08:53:00.000+01:00

Dear blog diary, not daily but radomly filled.
How do you do?
Well i bought my wife a used left handed Gibson Sonex.
And though it used to be a cheap Gibson back in its time, the sound is really terific.
really fat on the neck pick up. powerful. great. not fuzzy at all. i don't know,
the neck backside wore off a bit and isn't as well polished as my fender cyclone and is therefore a bit sticky but really enjoyable to play with however.
I can't remember how heavy one of my friend's epiphone les paul was, but this one is rather heavy. a lot more than the cyclone.
It's about 24-25 years old, in an overall really good condition, has some dents, scratches here and there.
The shopkeeper who sold it said left handed Gibson are rare, is it true? I mean, are they rarer than fender and other ones?
I think he went a bit ahead of himself by saying that.

My ears are really telling me to stop

2006-01-19T09:53:00.000+01:00

I recorded the last shit til 2AM
Woke up at 7Am satrted recording another shit from 8 and finished at 9:30Am
I put it here once again, what an activity these last days.
I don't why ftp transfer is really slow.
Standards.m4a
This time i'm not singing 'cause i'm going to work.
I'll do it later.
I feel like i'm on the way to recording the crap ideas i saved on tapes.
As the Beastie Boys say, "I listen to wax i'm not using the cd",
or something like that.
I really feel a drop of my ears sensitiveness, i don't know how to say that,
they're like fuzzy, i'll stop recording and listening things to loud today.
Not that i like playing loud or listening to music loud, not at all, but it's really hard to record at low levels, to me however.

Ears are saying "no, no, please no"

2006-01-19T01:55:00.000+01:00

Hi fellow no existent readers.
Sound once again.
Still singing rubbish.
Called evergrey, oppposing to evergreen obviously.
What do you want me to type more? hey?

Still a work in progress too, just like other things i use to call songs.

Evergrey.m4a

Phone

2006-01-18T15:00:00.000+01:00

I hate the phone. We used to own a cell phone but we gave it to my parents,
i hate being called on the phone, whether i don't wanna talk at the moment i receive the call or people blabering, and you just say yes yes, no, yes, no, no, no, bye, just doing something else at the same time.
When someone calls you, she/he somewhat has power over you since s/he obliges you to talk, and if you wanna be polite you must accept.
That's why i love email or im.
With emails, you're read when your recipient has time to read mail.
With im, the person clearly shows off s/he's ready to talk since s/he's connected.
You'd better not phone me.

new song bis

2006-01-17T22:56:00.000+01:00

Well, it's been a few hour since my last post.
Well (x2), thanks to matthieu who gave advice on mixing the track i last posted.
He's sound engineer, does a lot of diy too.
Coma.m4a
Always the same, use whatever you want that can play that.
MPlayer (free software), Quicktime, etc...

New noise track

2006-01-17T11:03:00.000+01:00

Hello everybody, hmm hmm, nobody i should say.
As usual, nobody to read this.
I recorded a new piece of song, songlet, whatever you wanna call this.
A droplet of shit, yeah. funny.
Well, that's it. I don't know anything actually.
Download, listen, comment on, delete.
Thanks.

Coma.m4a

MPlayer plays it, Quicktime does (so do iTunes), hmm, maybe others.
Come on, future standards.
lol

PowerMac G4 Noise Analysis

2006-01-15T11:31:00.000+01:00

As i've been given a PowerMac G4 FW800 2x1.25GHz, i've realized that it's a rather noisy computer.
I've been searching the web for pages about that and mods that we could do to make the machine a bit quieter. The best page i found was about a little tweak one could do with a piece of leather that is put between the PSU fans and the case side, therefore reducing vibrations.
And it works great!
The page also proposed to anayse the sound of the computer, and i spend some time recording again the computer.
I've got a multieffect pedal i used as an amplifier because it's not very loud however and recorded samples at different fan activity levels, and different positions.

Words

2006-01-12T10:47:00.000+01:00

I you want me back here i'm now
I you want the 60's here we go
Oh the trends just want you sexy
Show your fucking ass and shave your pussy

A song to come.
I've just thought about a riff and chorus while listening to "Come together"
and finally drifted from so it's not what i thought first. I've recorded it on my old tape recorder
that's just in front of my amp, overwriting some old stuffs i never concretized.
But i'll do that. It's kinda weird i think.
I don't really, really what???
I've been disturbed by a phone call...

News from the west front

2006-01-06T14:26:00.000+01:00

Hi!
In case anybody interested would read this damn blog, i'm also some kind of software engineer.
Working under Mac OS X and other Unix platforms.
I really like (that is i do not hate) programming in C and Objective-C. Sometimes a bit of Perl, Java(a really long time i didn't wrote a line of it...about 1 year i guess haha!).
I've written a kind of "Framework" for the HTTP protocol. It's really dirty but it works. No, it's almost working perfectly but as you may know there's always glitches hidden.

Funny thing

2006-01-06T10:04:00.000+01:00

There's something funny about iMac G5.
I was just burning a dvd in the background while working, and heard a little noise from the so-called superdrive (whoa sounds cool! a dvd burner), it was starting the dvd lead-out.
Then i heard another noise, it was ejecting the disc.
The funny fact is that, i don't know how it happened, it completely ejected the disc and it fell on
a speaker. It's alright the dvd isn't even scratched, but they usually stay hanging at the edge of the computer (there's something made out of foam that retain them in the slit).
I should have filmed that. Really funny.

Here they are

2005-12-13T14:01:00.000+01:00

The audio clip i talked about in the last post.
I also did a small video with stuffs we did throughout April to now. A little compilation of pictures and small videos taken with an ixus 300.
The video clip ~5Mb
The audio clip ~1Mb

I believe they're both mpeg4 files. Since i made it with a mac, i know quicktime reads them, tested with mplayer the video and succedeed, it should work under linux. I don't know about windows, but it should be ok with quicktime i guess.

--

I add these few lines to put some copyright related information.
As they were made in France, therefore in European Union, although both media do not contain a legal statement claiming full ownership over these to myself, they are my property and have full rights on them.
These are not public domain stuffs although they're here for free, got it?
You cannot redistribute it without my permission.
Hmm, it may be a bit paranoid, but i don't want nobody to do anything i wouldn't like to do with it.
So the rule will be You can only download these files from this blog. Unless i gave you the authorization to proceed otherwise.

Hello Once Again

2005-12-13T10:50:00.000+01:00

Ok, so today, actually yesterday, i wrote a little song, it took me almost a morning, it started quite psychedelic and finishes, hmm, radiohead-like, though more agressive, to me it was definitly not the same, but actually makes one think to some radiohead tunes.
It's a 1:40 song.
Currently vocals-less.

Free! You get this wonderful of downtown saint-etienne taken from the top of a slag-heap.

Another idea

2005-11-29T11:27:00.000+01:00

So this time, it's a virtual turntable.
You play an album and it looks like it's an LP, EP, whatever you want that's playing, and you could even change the track oldschool way, rip it over the disc and it scratches...yeah.
Great.
Another useless shit by my brain.
Ohoh, i'm gonna do this.
I've got so many idea i'd liek to achieve i don't even know which one to start...
So from now on this idea is copyrighted. Patent pending. ahahahaha. hmm hmm.
Well ok, it's ok, everything is ordered, everything is under control. Your thoughts too.
The top most funny thing would be that if you mistreated you disc, scratched it too much, didn't handle it with care, that it wouldn't play anymore.
Yeah, and you can even think of another kind of copy coontrolling devices...
The recordings that deteriorate as time passes by. When it's too late, you can't hear something audible, or that brings pleasure to your ears and mind, so you've got to buy a new edition of it.
It's crazy how one can restrict your freedom and take pleasure at planning to be doing so.
I know understand Dictators, they're having fun, actually.

Winter arrives!

2005-11-29T10:20:00.000+01:00

Yeah, winter arrives.
Last week it snowed a bit, but the snow didn't last more than an hour on the roofs, but stayed a few days on parks and grass patches. The surrounding hills were all white.

Today i gave a look at the dashboard weather widget, and it gave me a enthusiastic warm feeling when i saw it. First because it's forecasting snow, and also because the graphics are of such a good quality that it makes you feel it's snowing. And since tiger has been available since April, i had never seen this. (though it snowed a lot on April 9, the first time i drove our car, i passed the license on April 4, and if you drive at slow speed and you stay calm, and you pay attention a lot to what others do, it's simple, but quite stressful. I drove i can remeber one hour under the snow and i felt like i had a 4 hour exam...my brain totally exhausted).

However, i think they're wrong in their forecast because when you look at the sky, it doesn't give the impression there's going to be a snow fall or whatever. It light grey, it's not that cold, 3°C, the cloud layer doesn't seem to be that thick.

However, we're getting nearer and nearer from christmas, we'll have to buy a tree, find gifts, spend all the money we saved lol.

North Korea

2005-11-27T20:52:00.000+01:00

Hi!
Maybe i don't understand anything to how the world works, and i certainly don't effectively.
Yesterday evening i spent a long time reading websites about north korea, starting off from the wikipedia North Korea page.
I can't tell you in my own words. (firstly because i couldn't)
Even reading this sites is frightening, you feel like someone's going tto kill you at night, or even do abduct you, as they seem to be doing other there.
It's a real life adaptation of Orwell's 1984, i always thought, although he had foreseen what would happen in communist/nazi regime if they could sustain a long time, it was all too much, i mean, i love this book really, but i always thought things that big couldn't happen. I mean, in russia, from time to time it seems there have been purges as in all revolutions, but it seems o me that USSR was however a somewhat opened country. People have been deported and i obviously condemn these acts, not to mention Cuba that seem to me to be a good implementation of socialism but where the embargo exacerbated problems.
Well, these countries were relatively opened (cuba really is i think).
North Korea seems to be totally closed. We don't know what happens there.
We only know what defectors tell once they're safe.
So, i'd recommend to read the official North Korea News agency website, hosted in japan (.co.jp domain). In french, i love to say that phrase(it's a phrase of mine i believe), i would say that all articles you can find there "c'est du flan", you know,
when you eat it, you can't even chew, it melts instantly.
It's all lies.

a Brand new idea!

2005-11-24T13:48:00.000+01:00

Well actually, it's not new, someone must have done this already.
Here, in the afternoon, the channel France2 broadcasts german detective soaps, somestimes good enough, but sometimes really really bad. Yesterday, i turned on tv around 14, 14:30, and an episode of (yet unknown to me) rex(french dubbing i suppose) series was just starting. Ohoh, i only watched it for 5min but it was hilarious, even the title sequence, it's really pitiful.
So i decided to make it even more pitiful, actors are playing so badly in sopas generally, that the idea is to remove the original soundtrack and redo all dailogues, but really ridiculous ones...
In french obviously, as you can see my english is far too bad to do things as big as that.

It's so hard to remember

2005-11-24T13:34:00.000+01:00

Hi! none.
Well, you know, it's hard to remember all the paswwords one has in this information technology world. We've got to have strong password and we've got to remember all of them.
Oh, personnally, it's somewhat easy, i've got 3-4 quite strong passwords i can remember, the problem being to know which one i used on this or that service.
And when i logged onto blogger today, i used a bad one, second try was good.

I wish you a good day.

PS:
What a bunch of bastards that's passing in the street i live in. They drive too fast, the street is really narrow and there's an elementary school.

Down with Dora the Explorer!

2005-11-22T15:07:00.000+01:00

For the sake of humanity, we've got to kill that girl.
I don't know what she's meant to be doing with kids, but watching parts of episodes at tv is among the worst things i've ever experienced.
What is it really? It's just brain annihilation for babies, nothing more. It gives you a feeling of interactivity with long gaps from time to time to let you think but in the end, it's always dora who decides. There's no place for errors in this show, and if you were wrong, there's no explanation, all you know is you were wrong.
Furthermore, nothing is done to set the child in a learning environement, i mean, he(/she) watches tv, he's not at school, he doesn't realize, and even think, he's going to learn something, and is brain is structurally disinclined to retain things.
And many more.

So one more time, for the sake of the future, let's kill dora (and her monkey)

It's been a long time

2005-11-22T15:03:00.000+01:00

Yeah, it's been a long time since my last post. And still no one has read my few sentences.
I've been working too much on a filtering proxy server of my brew, seems to be working now, but i've got to try it a little bit more. Yeah, i learnt a lot of things on networking working on this project.
I'm writing this with the server alive to see if it'll transmit the message. I hope it will do so. If not, it'll only mean more work to be done.

I'll post another little thing.

IKEA swivel chair

2005-10-17T10:31:00.000+02:00

Well, i post this beacause we bought two IKEA chairs (skruvsta) that are very comfortable.
I know they tilt, but i don't understand how.
Sometimes, if you lean against the back of it and push a bit more, it starts to tilt.
But there's one that tilts only a few and then blocks, and the other that does only a little angle and then stops, and it's harder to do so.

Holidays

2005-10-17T10:12:00.000+02:00

I don't really enjoy swimming, but i really like the beach and shores, and the country side...
Where i live, in the center of france, there isn't the sea, but france isn't really big and ini one day (by car) you can go from cross the whole country (well, if you don't take time to appreciate the trip, to look at the country sides, the towns, and drive on highways and rest there).

So, from where i am, i can go anywhere in france in one day. The ocean is at (at the nearest, ile d'oléron) only 600km, that's about 8 hours if you don't drive fast, but it took us between 10 and 11 hours because we rested a lot, and took time to see where we passed through.

Ok, so now, the seaside is great, except the mediterranean shore, it's packed with people, warm and so densily occupied that you can't go anywhere freely.

Walking on the beach is great, just as walking anywhere else.

I like to go on vacation, i like travelling.

100% polyester filling

2005-10-17T10:05:00.000+02:00

Well.
Some things are stuffed with polyester.
Great polymer. Polyester is cheap...pollutes a lot but is so lightweight that to pollute a lot it would fill a large volume.
Don't take this as true, i don't know anything on polymers and other plastics, except that they're petroleum byproducts.

Kashmir Earthquake

2005-10-16T02:05:00.000+02:00

I really wanted to post something about this.

When hurricane katrina hit the south of the united states, we heard a lot about it here. Ok, that was big.
Now, after the second hurricane that did almost nothing (good point), there've been an earthquake in Kashmir, a mountain zone between (and shared by) Pakistan and India.
Well, now India has became a somewhat rich country and we see it particiapte in worldwide efforts to help when problems arise, but Pakistan isn't that rich.
However, as rich as a country can be, when a disaster happens, help is welcome because cash is good but men and survival goods are better.
As we saw it fr katrina, help came from all over the world, even though it happened in the united states.

The real problem for me is there is still no major site encouraging people to make donatino to the red cross or other organization who might help over there.

That's just as usual.

And i didn't give anything either.

Down with spammers

2005-10-16T01:54:00.000+02:00

As nobody ever dropped a single line of comment on my blog i was surprised to see i had two comments.
These were spams. It's incredible, they're tryin it too. Won't they stop one day?
What should we do to prevent them?

Learn profiles, that might be good...with machine learning maybe.
If someone's interested, tell me.

Blogspot Profile

2005-10-16T01:40:00.000+02:00

While filling the profile form i started (and finished) answering the question it asked me. The answer was too long for it but i didn't want to shorten it and preferred ask for another question.

Here is what i answered.

The first time you had your shoes taken off - how surprised were you to see that you still had toes?

Really, i can't remember. I can try to guess however. THe first time it must have been taken off by one of my parents, and it might have been a kind of game to me, so yes i may have been surprised. But no, i don't think so, 'cause the man is an intelligent primate and has the consciousness of its own body very early in its life. Therefore, i must have realized that the shoes hadn't hurt me and expected that i had both feet and all toes. If not, i would have cryed a lot i think.

They breath like mad!

2005-10-16T00:54:00.000+02:00

Hey! HElp me please!
I'm blogging this! on my own blog! Help!
Can't you see i'm going crazy?

I'm like a frog. Lost in the desert, or in the summer sun. Far from my pond. I need water and 'ill have to find it myself.
How good would it be if someone was answering my calls in this empty electronic cyberspace. Aditionally, this space is so cold it would freeze the fire in a few seconds.
It doesn't prevent the hottest boys and girls from showing off in it.
What a space it is. It looks like it's not our world.

A+

Time suddenly slowed down, or not?

2005-10-06T23:59:00.000+02:00

It feels like time suddenly slowed down these last few months, don't you think so my theoretically inexistant reader?
But it flew as fast as usual actually. 24H a day, 60 minutes an hour, 60 secs a minutes 10^9 nanoseconds a second.
Yeah, i'm progigious a mathematician, thanks, i`ve known that for years now, i`m a genius, as o`brien (is it o`brien? i can`t remeber the name of the character in 1984 that lures Winston Smith in believing he`s a member of the underground rebellion, well read it if you don`t know) might want us to say, 2+2=5.
And he`s defintly true. 2+2=5.
What`s a nanosecond if you can`t even feel something within this time? a subdivision, nothing more. A subdivision of what? Of the void, the meaningless.
I`ve come to it now, time is nothing and everything, but should we care?
Sure we should. Sadly people died for it. Let me explain my thought.
Imagine, on July 7 2005, in London, lots of people died in the terrorist attacks. As they all happened in the public transportion, you could link it to an every day use of the subway or the bus, trams... What happens most offen when you`re in a hurry? you miss your bus. And you know what? People died because they missed their bus and took the bad one following. And all this because of what?
Well, they were a bit tired and stayed in bed 5 min more, or the coffee box was empty and had to open another one, maybe even one had the runs, stayed 2 minutes too long in the toilet.
Everything happens and small events (such as a droplet of coffee when putting a sugar in it that attracts our attention) get us nearer from one event to another.
But there are things one can control and others that can`t be. Every act you`re not taking part in is uncontrollable, therefore, you can`t predict it will happen precisely (sometimes you can`t even predict it will happen).
And the same goes for things you do unconsciously, for example waking up, lighting the room, you don`t even know you want to do this, but you do. You don`t know the way you`ll do it, you`ll follow a pattern you`ve learned, but not the movements exactly, that obviously make us people and not dumb robots following a path.

You can`t control everything, you can`t control your fate.

You may help it tending to take this or that way, but you can`t avoid bombs or car crash.

That`s the way things are.
Goodnight, i go to sleep.

Time goes by

2005-07-03T23:12:00.000+02:00

I suddenly realized it's been almost a month since i posted a message last time. I don't really know what to say actually. Hot summer, drought in some areas, everything as usual...
sometimes i meet indians.

see you soon...see myself soon

Netherlands turn

2005-06-02T08:28:00.000+02:00

The Netherlands said No. Well, 62% of voter said No to the european constitution. The problem is they said No for opposite reasons to the French no voter (mainly).
It seems it's gonna be tough to agree, if ever we're trying again.

France says NO?

2005-05-31T08:12:00.000+02:00

Well, as i'm french, i almost know why people voted NO sunday. I voted yes, because that meant to me a better future for all of us european, the text being too social or not, it was a agreement we settled, and in itself was something great as 25 different countries, though having cultural differences - minor to me - and each aiming profit to theirself, were about to accept rules applying to all instead of directives implemented in each country in order to "plug" it in the local law.

Well, we said no...why? Most french say they love Europe, and i believe them, and i believe myself.
But they considered the government illegitimate as recent votes prove that most french are against it. The president and its government is as always unpopular, and i understand it, as alawys, they came with great promises when elected, but did almost none. Unemployment has reached levels like never before - actually, i guess it was slightly higher at the turn of the 80s - and almost nothing was done to stop the problem.
They gave tax-deductible advantages to support free enterprise, but the average french is not entrepreneurial at all, he wants somebody to offer job to him.
In France, we're used to the government planning everything for people, workers are nearly unflexible and when there's a strike to deplore some reform, the government usually stops everything that was planned, leading to some kind of status quo.
If it keeps on reforming the country, the government is compared to some kind of dictatorship...
I still think that masses have to fight for their rights, but they should come back to reality sometimes, but as everybody knows, the people understands the economical and political context far better than politicians. When it comes to their life, i agree, but on the international level, we should never let the masses decide.

With the new government Jacques Chirac is due to appoint today, i hope there'll be some change. It's hard to face reality but i think France needs somebody like Tony Blair, there are things he did for the UK i do not agree with, but others should be welcome.

I stop here.

Some Noise

2005-05-20T15:08:00.000+02:00

I've just recorded a song, i post it there.
imagination.mp3

Activism

2005-05-19T08:25:00.000+02:00

I feel like i wanna take part in a kind of stuggle for a better world. This is pathetic.
Activism is now just seen as a kind of way to express ones feelings against working/living conditions. That's it. People fight for personal comfort, never fight for the others, i mean is their much heterosexual people fighting for gay/lesbian rights? I don't think so.
And this holds for other minorities, they're only active in their 'personal' interest.
These are incisive thoughts, i agree, but i don't actually want to write a PhD thesis on minorities.
Therefore i'd better stay home and shut up. No.
I'd try to say what i think wherever i am.

It's pitiful. I hope you laughed.

2005-05-19T00:46:00.000+02:00

A little bit more details...hmm, no.

Hi!

2005-05-19T00:39:00.000+02:00

This is my first post.
I don't really know why i created this blog since i don't really like blogs.
I should post everything i want to, that is mostly music or pictures and maybe videos.
Thanks to anyone reading this.